don't want to speak too soon but...

I'M HAPPY!
Don't want sympathy or anything but I have been very upset, sad and depressed the last couple months BUT the last week or so, I've been happy. Thank you Lord!

Ok since about Christmas I have been saying I wanted a tattoo for my birthday... I had decided on the word "believe". I wanted it on my foot, show it off with flip flops but easy to cover when necessary. WELL, my mind was changed when I saw a canvas that Mo painted! So check out what I'm sporting on my leg... it's red and swollen. I'll try to post another pic in a week or so!

OMG! something must be wrong with blogger right now! I can't upload the picture. I will try again later-sorry!

ok ok!

So over a month ago I promised an update! I have had so much going on, really don't want to go into details right now. But I will ask for prayers. New job, new living situation, and the list goes on. When I started this blog, I was talking to Casey about a title and I was like, I don't even know myself to come up with a title! Hence the title, Trying to find myself! Well, over the past year I have found myself. Some people say I have changed, but I haven't, I have found myself. I have lived that past 23 years for everyone else, and now it's time to live for me. Well that's all for now. The past month or so have been the hardest (if not saddest) time of my life but day by day it gets better and I have to just move forward and live for myself now. Hope all is well with everyone. Much love, peace and hope. BELIEVING- Zhohn

I'm still here, promise!

I know it has been SOOOO long since I posted. Just letting everyone know that I promise a lengthy update SOON with PICTURES!!!

Olivia will be FOUR months old tomorrow, already! Gosh how time flies!

BELIEVING-
Zhohn

Miss Olivia

My sweet little niece, Olivia, arrived February 12th! I can't believe I'm just posting! She keeps us all busy as she loves to be held!!!

Enjoy the pics, although she doesn't even look the same anymore. I never realized babies look different everyday! I love her monogrammed dress, she was 2 days old in that picture!

She is so precious and the cutest ever! I have some more recent pics to share that are on my phone but just don't have the time to load them now.

guess what???

I JOINED A GYM!!! and I LOVE IT!!! Why didn't I join years ago?

I never imagined I would enjoy working out! A couple friends go to the same gym so sometimes we work out together.

My sister is 38 weeks pregnant. She goes to the doctor Tuesday and he will schedule her to be induced within the next week, if Miss Olivia doesn't decide to come out on her own! We are getting so excited! She does not need ANYTHING for the next six months atleast!

I haven't seen Patrick since he went home :(.
I talk to Casey a lot and he has colic so they're sleep deprived but otherwise doing great! My lil man has gained weight so I can't wait to see him!!!

BELIEVING!
Zhohn

Patrick...

Patrick has made his appearance!!! He was born Friday at 9:17 am. He is a tiny little guy, weighing 6 lbs 12 oz and was only 18 in long! I talked to her around noon today and they were on their way home.

I got to spend two days holding the little guy and it seemed like his looks changed overnight! I hope to get up there this week and see him again!

I'm not home right now but I will share pics soon!

Believing,
Zhohn

YAY!

Casey (caseyjo18.blogspot.com) just pulled up at the hospital. We will meet baby Patrick VERY soon!!!! I can't wait!

My sister went to the doctor today and he said he expects her to have Olivia in about three weeks, which is right before her due date.

I have had a wonderful year so far. I will update soon.

Believing-
Zhohn